By Chad Bird
Publisher: Wm. B. Eerdmans
Genre: Faith & Life
Release Date: 10/2017
Bird lost everything he cared about—his dream job as a seminary professor, his wife and children, his speaking engagements, his plans for a successful future. Within a short time he was reduced to sitting alone on the floor of a one-bedroom apartment and staring into the barrel of a .357 Magnum.
His demise was largely of his own making, as he admits. He makes no attempts to shift blame or spare himself as he tells of the infidelity and other sins that led to his downfall. But as he eventually realized, even at his lowest point, God was in the midst of his disaster starting the work of making him whole again.
Becoming whole did not mean recovering anything he lost. Those things were gone for good, and Bird chose a much different career path and became a truck driver. During late nights alone in his truck, he began to read the Psalms, asking the same probing questions as the psalmists: Has God’s steadfast love forever ceased? Has He in anger shut up His compassion?
Bird still had more to suffer, but the stark reality in which he found himself allowed him to strip away the false masks and tidy theology of the years when life was good. He learned his complete dependence on God to rescue him and the utter inadequacy of his own goodness to do so. Even repentance is a gift that Christ gives.
Readers will appreciate the raw honesty of this book and will find their own faith and assumptions challenged and stretched.